comedian

Transparency



Transparency isnt an easy thing for me. As a middle class American guy, I wasnt taught to share my feelings. I was taught that pain was weakness leaving the body, and that to cry was only a show of weakness. I was taught that, for a guy to talk openly about his feelings was effeminate, and not to be encouraged.

I believe that in order to reach my personal goals, I need to learn to be happy and proud of who I am, and of how I feel. I cant be afraid to discuss my feelings, or to share my personal goals with those closest to me (those whose ridicule I fear the most). I believe that my lack of ability to share these things has resulted in a bit of an inability to feel close to people...even my best friends.

Today, and over the next week or so, Im going to approach and talk to my close friends about my feelings, about my life and the changes Im trying to make, and about our friendship. I'm fairly terrified about this, so hopefully I don't chicken out. Ill let you all know how it goes later in the week.

- Com