Tomorrow the doctor will tell me whether I still got cancer or not. My last operation was a month ago and the test results have just come in. If I've still got it they'll have to remove my bladder but if I' don't I'll have to start a year long medicine cure which will not be pleasant. So my life will turn to shit or even shittier tomorrow.
If the bladder needs to be removed they also take the prostate which means that there is a 99% likelihood of me being impotent for the rest of my life. That kind of sucks (and not in a good way).
But if I'm cancer free right now we start the cure. Then I'll get to enjoy having a catheter inserted once a week for a year to use when they inject the medicine into the bladder... oh happy joy.
2011 sucked, and apparently 2012 will too.
But that's not entirely true. I've been able to enjoy myself between surgeries. And even though I'm not as strong as I used to be I'm doing a hell of a lot better than I thought I was gonna when I was really sick in spring.
I didn't do as many skydives as I wanted too because my body protested a bit but here's some of them.. everything on the film is from my camera.
If the bladder needs to be removed they also take the prostate which means that there is a 99% likelihood of me being impotent for the rest of my life. That kind of sucks (and not in a good way).
But if I'm cancer free right now we start the cure. Then I'll get to enjoy having a catheter inserted once a week for a year to use when they inject the medicine into the bladder... oh happy joy.
2011 sucked, and apparently 2012 will too.
But that's not entirely true. I've been able to enjoy myself between surgeries. And even though I'm not as strong as I used to be I'm doing a hell of a lot better than I thought I was gonna when I was really sick in spring.
I didn't do as many skydives as I wanted too because my body protested a bit but here's some of them.. everything on the film is from my camera.