columbia

NOVEMBER 7th, 2007


wow just wow crazy shitty amazing so many emotions like Ahh

..going on .. im here in cali to handel my stupid ass car shit.. its a nightmare.. urrg .;this car is total total nighmare trying to get the title and reg. and then something amazing happens and its way to long to go into detail but basically I beleive that ALL or at least most of my "BAD LUCK" with finally come to an end.. this thing called "Karma" ya when it rains it poors and it works in both ways very good and i think wow just ahh shiit my head soo many coinsidences and random events, total weeird bizzard consiracy shit like i dont really know whats going on but my life is changing and hollywood is grasply discovering me in all the most random eventful ways meeting people networking ect . ect. holy ow soo much basically i was supposed to go thro living hell with this fucking car because this fucking car brought me to california and what happens in california.. stars are born and talent is discovered everywhere ya anywho and just too many good and bad( with me car and othe random shyte) has been going on ..I left cali then said Ok C-ya NOv. 24th.. then Bam some bullshit a the DMV in Vegas Oh I have to show thses paper to the DMV in CAli so I said Aight peace Halloween morning and was going to spend hte ngiht for one night go to hte DMV in XCAli the next say and thn one thing after another and now Im stuck here again for what.. Sits fait or destiny oin some way shape or form.. and then i got a weiird horoscope soon after like the 4th saying_

" Everyone will be disctacted but you- take action of you new clarity"


i dont quite get it bu part of me has an idea. al I know is these fucked up coinsdences are happendning then later that same day MTV calls me back.. 3 months later.. I had my "Next" audtion like in June or some shit and they told me they would be picking the final people at the end of Aug.. this is NOV. and that SAME day .. I got that text BAm My phone rings.. Hey its blah blah from MTV and we want yo on MTVs' NEXT.. dating show but a Lesbian Epsidode i Nov. 14th im like sweet. free airfar, limo pick, up hotel room. then shortly after bam bam my phone is getting blown up wih hotmail e-mail alerts about casting calls. and audtions.. idk. it just seemes kinda like woah whats going on here to me.. b/c its not like someone had my number and was fucking with me .. I get e-mail alerts for all kinds of things but seldomly.. urrg. i am getting urg idk whats going on but some of it sux b/c i just want my car nightmatre to be over so i can come home but im letting life take its course for whatever is happening for this little Virgo.. urg. blah ok iom done

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NOVEMBER 10th, 2007

So.. heres my next Update:


Went to DMV. they telling me I need a new smog and have to pay $289 bux to have them hand me over the title and or reg. and all this other paperwork. I got the other paperwork.. The "lien sale" shit but my car did NOT pass smog.. I got a free pass to have it smogd again but I will hafta find someone who would just sign off the papers on the "DL" saying it did in fact pass smog.. then I gotta find a shoot to pay the penalty fees or whatever it is..

I drove here on Halloween morning right after I left the NV DMV around 11am.. thinking everything would be fine. I would spend Halloween night here in L.A. then in the monrnig go to the DMV show them the papers then BAM! Het back home to Vegas immediatley after.. But no.. as I wrote above I have to take cae of all this bullshit..

2 People claim they know a mechanic that can sign a paper for my smog.. Only thing... the girl who knows a mechanic says he cant get to me til MOnday..
and my guy friend who says he knows someone hasn't really smoken much about it yet..

I have been here for 10 fucking days I like it but I want to come hooomee.. I didnt bring enough clothes, Im staying at random fucking friends, and having to worry about my next flippin meal and when I get to shower next all that bullshit.. I have been making a little money while I am here thank-god.


I am not sure how much I will be getting paid for that "NEXT" thing but this kid I met says he got $400... I only hope I get something close to that...fuck that would be perfect I could pay my bullshit, maybe pay some idot stick under the table to pass my smog then come HOME and end this shit. Only thing is with my luck it will be a check and it would probably be mailed to me..


So I been looking online for shoots, event work, ect, so I can make some fast income.. And my brakes are starting to go out as-well. It makes baaaad squeaky noises and i have to press almost all the way down to make a comeplete. stop. People say as much work as I put into this "Lemon" I shuold just junik it and tell the judge when i go to Court the 26th ( and have to prove that my car is registered and insured..) that I got rid of the car and explain my situation a nd everything that has been going on and show ALL my reciepts for bullshit I had to buy to fix it b/c it died the other day.... but IDK what to do...


IN the meantime.. the even more worse part of this is i have been unable to tell my roomate what has been going on.. Everytiime I try to call, or text or leave a voicemail I get no reply... Its already hard enough for me to deal with confrontations and the fact I convinced myself to grow some balls and just call him.. and what .. no luck.. I am worried that even though where I live I dont pay rent at the moment, when I get back home my stuff will be in boxes and my dog will be gone.. I have already just dissapeard from friends to just be alone to fucking break down b/c I just want this to be over with already... its like I am living life on the edge.. like I have been thrown in the middle of the street with no clothes on and cars going in all directions and not knowing which one will take me the right way...



anywho urrg. I am still handeling my bullcrap.. Sorry to everyone who I havent talked to in awhile since i have been gone.. I havent had much internet access . this is the 2nd time I have had access in 6 days..

please whoever reads this wish me luck b/c I need all the luck I can get ...I just want this to be over already so I can come home..