coltoncasanova

i sat outside for a little bit. i enjoyed my cig and looked to the ask and asked myself is there really a better place out there. Please show me something in life to show im not alone. so i look left ad saw a lonely bird on a line freezing alone. never have i felt i had so much in common with a bird. I have felt happiness in a long time. all i feel is pain or numbness. numbness is the closest thing i have to happiness at this point. where i hurt so bad its numb. just bring me something good. i am looking father, just help me.
i call the lake my happy place. the place i go to feel nothing. i will truely never understand why i always feel like this.