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Another successful weekend alone. I'm getting better at this, which... actually might make it worse.
But unlike most days, today wasn't entirely uneventful. My Grandpa stopped by, I hadn't seen him since my grandma died. He was sucha fucking coward during her whole cancer thing. I never saw a man act so spineless, he gave her sucha hard time and a short while after she died, he remarried.
So he came and talked to my mom, talked to my bro and dad. I tried to avoid him but we eventually ran into each other and all he said was " You got taller " he then gave me this little turtle toy thing. And that was it. He left a short while afterwards. I'm not sure why but I think I need to keep this turtle, for awhile i toyed with the idea of breaking it but what good would that do now?
He's done all the damage hes gonna do now, hes pretty up there in age so who knows how long hes got left. Now I don't know if theres a God and Devil, Iunno if theres a Heaven or Hell. Personally I think when we die, thats just it. Nothing special happens the world just presses on without us. But if there is something on the other side, I think things will work out. The last thing i said to my grandpa before he disappeared on us the first time was that " nothing is perfect and you will get yours ". It still stands true now and I think over time he realized it.

Um... but yeah, thats my little story for today.