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So yeah, I am not on here much. Life is to busy for some goodness is seems at times. But soon I get a mini vacation in LA. I have never been so it should be fun. If anyone has any suggestions on stuff to do or if you are out there and would like to hang out let me know!

I hope all is...
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I want to meet my "sam".

I have not posted here in a while. I guess my other journal has kept me busy, but im currently looking for some changes so maybe I will post here more often. I am currently just trying to change my stars to a degree, better my life and myself. Hopefully it works out well!!

I have been weighed, I have been measured, And I have absolutly been found wanting.

If I sad I wanted you to break my heart, what would you say?

Well it has been sometime since I have updated. I have been busy working on trying to get my life to take offf and though I am struggling I am making it through it okay. I just need a job to get everything on the way.

If you could be anything you want what would you be?


"A porn star, ha ha, just happy."(movie quote)

That is a jist of what I would maybe say myself. What would YOU say?

i seem to be losing friends
the few friends i have here are all busy
they all have so much more going on
i feel so empty and lonely these days
even surrounded by my friends i get lonely
but i spend day alone and not seeing any of my friends
and some people telling me the will call and never do
after all this...
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Yay, finally a new picture of me!

Everythig is changing so fast.
I am moving again soon, back home.

Im going ot have to adjust to it.
Going to miss alot of people.

But who will really miss me.

girls can be confusing
i know have been told by to girls that they did like me, but they did not try anything because the might hurt me. I really liked these girls at those times. And now later finding this out kinda hurts too. I had a crappy self-esteem in high-school and felt no one liked me. But they both did and did not....
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