fate slips -falls through the cracks, the gaps between the hours between the minutes between the seconds of where i am and where i want to be.
shuffled gaits and slower motions - motor skills reflecting emotional ills, finding it harder and harder to breathe.
seeping the sopping drench of sinking feelings and foreboding ceilings -ships careening in seething seas, i fly my kites at night.
listless in bliss less surroundings -cold soup and curdled thoughts, stirring compounded confoundings in dim skies, one star cant change the moons tide.
uttered misgivings of the dead amongst the living -finding out we arent who we see, but what others seem to let us be.
the soup in my clouds have faded away, im nineteen and letting go of my days giving way to the cold nights of indentured wants and dreams that ill never see. the rules of logic by which we all abide leave nothing to the imagination, because in this reality on star cant change the moons tide.
shuffled gaits and slower motions - motor skills reflecting emotional ills, finding it harder and harder to breathe.
seeping the sopping drench of sinking feelings and foreboding ceilings -ships careening in seething seas, i fly my kites at night.
listless in bliss less surroundings -cold soup and curdled thoughts, stirring compounded confoundings in dim skies, one star cant change the moons tide.
uttered misgivings of the dead amongst the living -finding out we arent who we see, but what others seem to let us be.
the soup in my clouds have faded away, im nineteen and letting go of my days giving way to the cold nights of indentured wants and dreams that ill never see. the rules of logic by which we all abide leave nothing to the imagination, because in this reality on star cant change the moons tide.
are you lonely?
i fear you picked up the dusty package that got made without the warning label...
i am bad news...
i make boys and girls fall in love with me and then i break their hearts...not on purpose...but because dear johnny boy, although i am on the same quest as you to find true love that will last forever, right now i am only after the rush of the new person...it is a hard and never ending journey because that rush that i so crave flees so quickly that the other person never even knew what hit them. i thought i could only wreck people in real life, but i have done it over this shit box as well. i am sorry...you were great...you still are great...sometimes i wish we could have back what we had...i've never had a boy quite like you...you and all your beauty and your bad writing now (it used to be good, what happened? you are slipping my long lost love) but you were perfect...said the perfect things...said things no one has ever told me before...and it is gone...write me again johnnyboy...tell me about my innards and the blood you wish to shed from my body for leaving you cold and bruised in the dark cold pool of your own blood.......do it johnny...give it to me...only you have ever given me the words that my heart fucking craves for...that i am searching for...be him again johnny...