Well well well...
Been pretty stagnant in Colin world recently, after loosing my job ive been confinded to my bedroom, wasting away, putting on more weight and playing computer games.
Hasnt been a very happy time! Ive had my mum pestering me for board, which is 50 a week. Even if im on the dole, i wouldnt be able to finance it. I think she's trying to get me to get a job.
But its so difficult. My confidence in seeking a job has dwindled down to zero, i darent go and apply and do interviews, as i was reduced to nothing in my last job, i was made to feel so worthless.
Anyhow, a couple of days ago i reached rock bottom, and i did something very stupid to myself, which i wont go into detail. Anyhow it made me realise that i have to do something about the downward spiral ive put myself into, and im looking towards a better future.
Anyhow, moving away from the doom and gloom, ive been somewhat inspired by Emma and my little brother, to get a tattoo. Although i think i should beef my arm up a bit first, i wanted to get a tattoo like this...
Will probably cost a lot (something i dont have at the moment) and will take a while for me to get some decent biceps to show it off to
Anyhow, to continue the arduous task of uploading all my photo's from the parties ive attended in the past year!
Been pretty stagnant in Colin world recently, after loosing my job ive been confinded to my bedroom, wasting away, putting on more weight and playing computer games.
Hasnt been a very happy time! Ive had my mum pestering me for board, which is 50 a week. Even if im on the dole, i wouldnt be able to finance it. I think she's trying to get me to get a job.
But its so difficult. My confidence in seeking a job has dwindled down to zero, i darent go and apply and do interviews, as i was reduced to nothing in my last job, i was made to feel so worthless.
Anyhow, a couple of days ago i reached rock bottom, and i did something very stupid to myself, which i wont go into detail. Anyhow it made me realise that i have to do something about the downward spiral ive put myself into, and im looking towards a better future.
Anyhow, moving away from the doom and gloom, ive been somewhat inspired by Emma and my little brother, to get a tattoo. Although i think i should beef my arm up a bit first, i wanted to get a tattoo like this...
Will probably cost a lot (something i dont have at the moment) and will take a while for me to get some decent biceps to show it off to
Anyhow, to continue the arduous task of uploading all my photo's from the parties ive attended in the past year!
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Yeah. Weirdly enough since I started telling folk that I "don't give a shit what you think about me" they've started liking me?