coldfreak

lonely...

so, i'm back from court! it went very good. all i have to do is one day of community service, and they'll drop the charge from my record. i have to admit i'm pretty excited. sounds crazy, i'm sure, but i think it will be fun. beep if you see me, picking up trash in my orange vest!!!! they said i'll probably be working in...
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i feel awful today. my body is sore from my rough weekend. my heart hurts and my head is fucked!!! i stayed in bed all day, & i can't wait to go back to bed. i feel like such a loser. it sucks. i haven't felt this way since i was about 20. so much for growing up huh?!?

so much for a fun night out at a concert. i got arrested and spent the night and most of today in a hartford prison. i am such an asshole! i still don't think i should have been arrested but i do realize that drinking when you all ready have a bad temper and a big mouth, is NOT good!!! i said some awful things...
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wow, what a day.... i finally finished editing, organizing, and renaming the wedding photos. what a fricken bitch!!! remind me never to shoot a wedding again!!!

it's kind of gloomy out and it's really getting to me. i hate feeling like this. i want to change things that are out of my control and that doesn't help matters. i feel like if i could just...
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i had a fine day today. im not fired, thank god! i'm getting excited for saturday, i'm going to see the used, snoop dog and linkin park. many drinks will be had saturday!!! i do have to work early sunday though, so maybe i should be responsible. oh who am i fooling, i'll be cocked for sure!!!

so i hung out with some friends lastnight. i had a good time. i also tried something new (i bet you'd never guess!)
i guess you have to try everything once in your lifetime. enough incriminating confessions for now....

so i couldn't go to work on monday because of some family issues so i'm probably fired. i have been a mess lately. i missed two...
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so, i shot a wedding over the weekend with a friend. it went well. it was a really long and exhausting day however. thank you so much jon, i definetly could not have done it without you!!!!

work is going fine. i've been doing a lot of reading. it's nice to get paid to hang out.... i still need a photography job! i feel like...
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i'm tired and i can't sleep. i hate that... my head hurts today from beer lastnight, that's as deep as i am going to get today!!!

so, the new job was ok. i read 2 books and fell asleep for awhile. maybe i won't hate it so much...

i start work tomorrow. i don't know how long i'm going to last. how is it possible that i can't find a job that i would enjoy....

so it's another long boring day. i am so tired from doing nothing. it's really sad.

so i am getting phone stalked by some loser. i had one innocent conversation with him and he seems to think we...
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i am very hung over today. i did manage to have a very nice afternoon inspite of it though. i had a nice lunch and walk with a good friend. i love stuff like that. quite and peaceful. it feels good to have my raging mind slow down for awhile....