coffeewhiskey

drunk again.
what is it, two days.
nobody should keep track.
my fingers are never fast enough for my thoughts.
been getting into this band Meg & Dia, been getting into a lot of bands that have female singers i.e. Maria taylor, regina spektor, orienda fink.
I wonder if it has anything to do with loneliness.
its so much easier to sleep when there's a girl singing you to it.
looking forward to going back to school, new classes means new crushes.
and if i can adopt the "be gone soon" philosophy (seeing as how its gonna be my last semster there) I should be more open to the people around me.
I think, personnally, it will be more of an attempt at waking up completely before wandering around.
I miss the days I could be me easily.
it seems like I looked so deep into me over the drug phase that i dont know exactly who i am and its not as easy to be me.
Like I'm improving on my own lines written by me in my mind.
I wonder why it feels so good for me to get it all out.
where does confessional fit into human nature?