coffeewhiskey

I kinda like that Fort Minor song, its called "where did you go"
it really just sticks in my head, and that red haired girl in it is kinda cute.

if i keep up on this exercise thing i can rely on the fact that everyday i will look and feel better then i did the day before, believe it or not this suffices as a reason to see tomorrow i.e. to live.

talking to someone new, fuck it corresponding with someone new, keeping my eyes open, trying really trying, i just hope i dont compare everybody new to past loves because i doubt they can stand up but then again thats my fault anyways.

looking back i realize how much i had and how much i threw away, ofcourse this brings about regret but also a dim hope for the possiblity of fully appreciating a beautiful smart fun girl as is my standards are hopelessly high and that is realy all i'll go for.

worst case scenerio, ripped in maui.