Wow- I can't believe I have been a member here for 10 years. Luckily, for some reason, I think I have only paid 2-3 times for this website. I am not sure how or why, but I appreciate it. I don't think it would be a place I would stay if I had to pay. A decade is a long time, and my life has changed so much from when I first became a member. I made a lot of enemies early on, but I can't apologize for that forever- and at this point I don't really feel the need. It's funny, the cliques that used to run this site are all gone, I know only a few people who are still left on the site, and even fewer I care to know- yet I always think of it as home. A place I can be myself and evolve and express my feelings without fear of the judgement you face in real life via other social media outlets. I suppose it came full circle when @amina started following me on Instagram. Someone who I adored and idolized 10 years ago and I saw that and my heart was full. We were peers, even if she didn't remember or know that I was the creepy chick leaving hella comments on her sets.
Obviously, I have made some incredible friendships through this website and hooked up with more than 1 person ;) Thats a given, right? But I also learned I have a passion for feminism and fats rights as well as disability activism. I would have never guessed 10 years ago that I would care so deeply and dedicated so much of my time to something as obscure as fat activism and body positivity- yet here I am with a blog that nears 10K every day and plans for a retail brick and mortar store. I joined this site nieve to the world and am grateful for all of the learning experiences it provided, not the least of which is how not to be a dick on the internet.