cobaltdesign

so. i dont really update much. i guess im bored with this site. it lost its sense of community about two years ago in my opinion. i do like the people on here though. There really are very few sg members in my area.
I guess i am feeling a bit lonely right now. i just had coffee with an ex of mine that still flirts with me a lot. so much sexual tension. but she is dating someone right now. that has never stopped her advences before. i have always been her secret lover. for about six years now. she comes back to me to get her fix. im kind of sick of it. i have a hard time with romance and love these days. i am so jaded and cold that it seems i cant warm to anyone anymore. my own family is like a buzzing little gnat in my ear. im annoyed. i want to love. i want to be content. i work and work. i must better myself. i have started a design/advertising agency with a my business partner jason. it is the only thing that ingnites a fire in my belly anymore. ambition. i have lost the romantic that i once was. or maybe it is just buried a bit. it seems to be peeking out here and there. im feeling it slightly right now. just not nearly with the same magnitude that i once did.