unstable position..... [15 May 2004|05:27pm]
I went to Abby's and Lorie's House last night. We celebrated Jesse's birthday. I forgot to tell him happy birthday myself though. That makes me feel bad. I got tipsy. Tipsy is a grandma word. But I did, I drank nasty ass beer and Jack. Scott was drunk times 1000. I wasn't. I talked to Lorie about stuff and decided I finally like her. I want to live in thier basement and paint. But I guess I am moving in with Britt and Kathryn. I haveing second thoughts about that. Like Not to offend anypne but, I don't know kathryn. I've known her for like a month, and though I know she won't do anything outa hand like steal pizza, don't know how I will really get along with her. I mean who decided this? Like one day it was me and Britt getting an apt and then Kathryn is all of a sudden moving in too? Britt said we had to discuss all of our tenants, I don't remember discussing Kathryn. Not that it's a huge deal, but kinda. I never got to know her! I don't know this is wierd.... We'll just have to see I guess. Anyways last night.... Brett fucking made an ass out of me for drinking. I wanted to go home after the party and I said I would drive home if he didn't take me. (he always doesn't wanna take me home, he's an ass.) And he said something like, You shouldn't have been drinking, it keeps you from doing things you really wanna do. That sucked. And then when he foundout that I do plan on smoking pot for the first time this summer, he said I was a stupid typical robot for wanting to do it. I don't care that he doesn't wanna do these things, but when I want to it's a huge deal. He also said he doesn't ever wanna marry me if I ever drink or smoke pot on a regular basis. I guess that's a threat. Then when he finally took me home, I was sobered up by my grandma lying on the couch saying she couldn't get up the stairs. She is telling everyone that all of a sudden all this arthuritis has flared up and she can't walk. This is within a week! I think it was because she has been sitting in the same place in the dark with no air on for two weeks straight worrying about looseing the house on grand ave. But maybe it's not. Maybe it's because she has developed a blockage in one of her viens getting blood to her legs or something. I don't know, but I was really mean to her because I thought she did it to herself. And so she called Her dumb ass sister from hendo to take her to the emergency room. The doctor said the stifness in her hips and legs might be from a mix of the medicine she was taking. Now I don't know where she is, whether she is in Hendo with dumbass or still in the hospital. No one tells me anything. And I still have to get ready for slut hell tonight, since I have to arrive ready. I am not gonna put my wig on or my ponytail on tonight. I am just gonna do my hair nice and 50's and go ahead and rock it. It's gonna be my first weekend day working at the new place and I heard it gets really busy on the weekend. So it should be a good night. Plus we have features that are porn stars that are gonna do shows for the crowd. Then on top of the stressful situation with patsy, I also had a very sexual dream about my diseased grampa last night. Like we were having sexual acts together. The dream was good at the time and I even had and orgasm in my sleep, but now that I'm awake I feel kinda sick over it. Okay on that note...
I get knocked down!
I went to Abby's and Lorie's House last night. We celebrated Jesse's birthday. I forgot to tell him happy birthday myself though. That makes me feel bad. I got tipsy. Tipsy is a grandma word. But I did, I drank nasty ass beer and Jack. Scott was drunk times 1000. I wasn't. I talked to Lorie about stuff and decided I finally like her. I want to live in thier basement and paint. But I guess I am moving in with Britt and Kathryn. I haveing second thoughts about that. Like Not to offend anypne but, I don't know kathryn. I've known her for like a month, and though I know she won't do anything outa hand like steal pizza, don't know how I will really get along with her. I mean who decided this? Like one day it was me and Britt getting an apt and then Kathryn is all of a sudden moving in too? Britt said we had to discuss all of our tenants, I don't remember discussing Kathryn. Not that it's a huge deal, but kinda. I never got to know her! I don't know this is wierd.... We'll just have to see I guess. Anyways last night.... Brett fucking made an ass out of me for drinking. I wanted to go home after the party and I said I would drive home if he didn't take me. (he always doesn't wanna take me home, he's an ass.) And he said something like, You shouldn't have been drinking, it keeps you from doing things you really wanna do. That sucked. And then when he foundout that I do plan on smoking pot for the first time this summer, he said I was a stupid typical robot for wanting to do it. I don't care that he doesn't wanna do these things, but when I want to it's a huge deal. He also said he doesn't ever wanna marry me if I ever drink or smoke pot on a regular basis. I guess that's a threat. Then when he finally took me home, I was sobered up by my grandma lying on the couch saying she couldn't get up the stairs. She is telling everyone that all of a sudden all this arthuritis has flared up and she can't walk. This is within a week! I think it was because she has been sitting in the same place in the dark with no air on for two weeks straight worrying about looseing the house on grand ave. But maybe it's not. Maybe it's because she has developed a blockage in one of her viens getting blood to her legs or something. I don't know, but I was really mean to her because I thought she did it to herself. And so she called Her dumb ass sister from hendo to take her to the emergency room. The doctor said the stifness in her hips and legs might be from a mix of the medicine she was taking. Now I don't know where she is, whether she is in Hendo with dumbass or still in the hospital. No one tells me anything. And I still have to get ready for slut hell tonight, since I have to arrive ready. I am not gonna put my wig on or my ponytail on tonight. I am just gonna do my hair nice and 50's and go ahead and rock it. It's gonna be my first weekend day working at the new place and I heard it gets really busy on the weekend. So it should be a good night. Plus we have features that are porn stars that are gonna do shows for the crowd. Then on top of the stressful situation with patsy, I also had a very sexual dream about my diseased grampa last night. Like we were having sexual acts together. The dream was good at the time and I even had and orgasm in my sleep, but now that I'm awake I feel kinda sick over it. Okay on that note...
I get knocked down!