Tears for Fears [08 May 2004|03:54pm]
[ mood | like shit ]
[ music | The faint ]
I'm so Creepy! Wooo Hooo! I have reached the amount of creepiness I have always desired having. So when I was trying to be gothin like jr. high, I wasn't "creepy" but Now I am..... Hmmmm. Not what I wanted. Does anyone remember gross trends like overalls with on strap down and mini back packs.... Not to mention fanny packs! Jesus what was the world thinking!? And What ever happened to me keeping a regular journal, and who are some of these people on my buddy list???? I gotta do my pics for burning angel soon, a new person named amy said she would do them. They are gonna be great. I want to bye a dildo, one of those with the beads and such inside of it. I hear they are grand. I am gonna go dance around all stupid at a show for brett in a little while. I gotta get into character, and I gotta find something to wear, actually I don't wanna dance at all. Not there. Its not fun if it's planned. I think my old little neibor friend has her legs broke from a car accident. Monica, I gotta ask jesse. Jesse is her older cousin who is playing in brett's band. Jesse is depressed like me. I am so negative, that's what Kathryn was telling me last night. I didn't think I was being negative, but who knows. I think I was just being me. I hate talking to new people. I am a jack ass about it. I am mean. I have been sleeping too long lately, I went from severe insomnia to sleeping way over 8 hrs a day. Maybe I am not really here, maybe I don't exist. I knew it! I emailed monty telling him what happened this semester the best I could. He's a good guy and I love him. I am so sad Stephanies gonna be in town at brittneys house for three weeks, I know she loves her. And I wish I could just be okay with all that but I hate that she is not mine, I am so possessive. I love brittney like a sister and a lover, that can't be changed. And stephanie is boring, how can that be so compelling? Anyways, I wouldn't be comfortable going over there while she was there so that means no best friend for the next three weeks, I'm sure I can handle it. I am tryin g to avoid friends right now, I don't trust people, except for brett and nick. But I can't tell brett everything because he's so sensitive, and Nicks never around when I need him. I am so fucking pissed at Kyle. He fucked Christ!
I get knocked down!
[ mood | like shit ]
[ music | The faint ]
I'm so Creepy! Wooo Hooo! I have reached the amount of creepiness I have always desired having. So when I was trying to be gothin like jr. high, I wasn't "creepy" but Now I am..... Hmmmm. Not what I wanted. Does anyone remember gross trends like overalls with on strap down and mini back packs.... Not to mention fanny packs! Jesus what was the world thinking!? And What ever happened to me keeping a regular journal, and who are some of these people on my buddy list???? I gotta do my pics for burning angel soon, a new person named amy said she would do them. They are gonna be great. I want to bye a dildo, one of those with the beads and such inside of it. I hear they are grand. I am gonna go dance around all stupid at a show for brett in a little while. I gotta get into character, and I gotta find something to wear, actually I don't wanna dance at all. Not there. Its not fun if it's planned. I think my old little neibor friend has her legs broke from a car accident. Monica, I gotta ask jesse. Jesse is her older cousin who is playing in brett's band. Jesse is depressed like me. I am so negative, that's what Kathryn was telling me last night. I didn't think I was being negative, but who knows. I think I was just being me. I hate talking to new people. I am a jack ass about it. I am mean. I have been sleeping too long lately, I went from severe insomnia to sleeping way over 8 hrs a day. Maybe I am not really here, maybe I don't exist. I knew it! I emailed monty telling him what happened this semester the best I could. He's a good guy and I love him. I am so sad Stephanies gonna be in town at brittneys house for three weeks, I know she loves her. And I wish I could just be okay with all that but I hate that she is not mine, I am so possessive. I love brittney like a sister and a lover, that can't be changed. And stephanie is boring, how can that be so compelling? Anyways, I wouldn't be comfortable going over there while she was there so that means no best friend for the next three weeks, I'm sure I can handle it. I am tryin g to avoid friends right now, I don't trust people, except for brett and nick. But I can't tell brett everything because he's so sensitive, and Nicks never around when I need him. I am so fucking pissed at Kyle. He fucked Christ!
I get knocked down!