Subject: and the band keeps playing...
Time: 1:28 am.
I got another dance outfit today. This one involves red polka-dots and black lace. Very posh! And I also got a leopard skin shirt that is straight out of the fifty's! Blingin'! I went out to eat and ate some good tofu and came home. Me and Brett talked on the phone. We finally had THE big TALK. It sucked. I love him so much, but I'm not sure if it real love or if it's comfort. So we have decided to take an official break. Or whatever. We are broke up but we are still gonna hang out until each of us can know whether this is for real or not. I just miss the good old times with him. When he was the only thing important to me, and there was no one else. I don't know, we'll see. Anyhow. I also talked to my mom about important stuff like how I'm a self-loathing pain addict and how I can't change, nor do I want to. The good thing about today is I saw and awesome college I may want to go to next year. It's evergreen state college. It awesome. There are no core classes and basically no real classes. You just sign up for a program, say... in philosophy. You meet with the Philosophy teacher and come up with a contract on what you plan to do in that program during the quarter. So you promise to be a bum for two weeks straight and then make a three-d art piece communicating how being a bum proves there is no god, through an argument style of a dead philosopher. Then you sign the contract. Then at the end of the quarter you present the three-d art work to the professor and he writes a report on how well you fulfilled the promise of the contract. It's pass/fail only. It's is the best fucking thing I have ever heard of, and it's only 4000 dollars a yr! I might as well die now. Okay I must find a way to go to this school. Love me.
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Time: 1:28 am.
I got another dance outfit today. This one involves red polka-dots and black lace. Very posh! And I also got a leopard skin shirt that is straight out of the fifty's! Blingin'! I went out to eat and ate some good tofu and came home. Me and Brett talked on the phone. We finally had THE big TALK. It sucked. I love him so much, but I'm not sure if it real love or if it's comfort. So we have decided to take an official break. Or whatever. We are broke up but we are still gonna hang out until each of us can know whether this is for real or not. I just miss the good old times with him. When he was the only thing important to me, and there was no one else. I don't know, we'll see. Anyhow. I also talked to my mom about important stuff like how I'm a self-loathing pain addict and how I can't change, nor do I want to. The good thing about today is I saw and awesome college I may want to go to next year. It's evergreen state college. It awesome. There are no core classes and basically no real classes. You just sign up for a program, say... in philosophy. You meet with the Philosophy teacher and come up with a contract on what you plan to do in that program during the quarter. So you promise to be a bum for two weeks straight and then make a three-d art piece communicating how being a bum proves there is no god, through an argument style of a dead philosopher. Then you sign the contract. Then at the end of the quarter you present the three-d art work to the professor and he writes a report on how well you fulfilled the promise of the contract. It's pass/fail only. It's is the best fucking thing I have ever heard of, and it's only 4000 dollars a yr! I might as well die now. Okay I must find a way to go to this school. Love me.
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