clementine

Yesterday i had the chance to sit down and realize that on December 26th i will be 23 years old yikes!!! It feels like it was just yesterday i was 16 years old and 18 years old. I feel like i took those ages for granted when i should have lived them up to the fullest. I will be 23 and have more health issues than a granny i have been struggling with panic disorder and agoraphobia for the past few months and it has been hell although i walked away with a pretty collection of hospital bracelets lol Im pretty much afraid to leave my house or my comfort zones with out freaking the fuck out BUT my new years resolution this year is to

LIVE LIKE I AM 16 AGAIN! WITH NO WORRIES AND NO FEARS!

i probably will not commit to it for a numerous amount of reasons. fear being the big reason. But i am going to try because living like the way i do is a waste! I have so much to still do in my life, for example:

1. Spend time in India and learn to speak Hindu.
2. Learn to surf.
3. Write my novel.
4. Get an apartment on Haight and Ashbury.
5. Buy an original Jackson Pollack.

and a bunch of other shit that i am sure i will want to do.

FIRST step being GETTING OVER MY FEAR OF LEAVING THE FUCKING HOUSE! HAHA!

any who....

TheDesiclub.com 2009 swimsuit calendar is out and i am featured in it along with some other really hot women!

MISS JUNE





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toodles!