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clearlii

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Sunday Oct 24, 2004

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Wow.. thanks everyone for the votes of confidence in the crush situation. I don't know if I'll be doing anything as cool as Hexe, but I'll definitely give it a shot... even if he does have more tattoos than I.... which, for some reason, in my mind is more of a determining factor than maybe it should be.
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This week has been one of epiphanies... some less exciting than others, but still. I've learned a lot about, you know, me:

-I used to hate my teeth like no one's business (except for the molars, because they're all filled with silver just like every woman on my mom's side of the family.. and so they're sort of like little heirlooms or something)... but I've discovered that I look better when I'm smiling.

-I've realized my purpose in life is to work with immigration policy in Mexico and South America to help develop their countries more so that they no longer have to risk their lives (in some cases... read The Devil's Highway). I just discovered this yesterday, and am now going to minor in immigration studies and get some kind of internship with one of the NGOs down here. Oh yes.. purpose feels like a nice, leafy, vinegary salad in my tummy. Mmmmm.

-This realization made me feel like I can get any tattoo I want now, because I won't be in any danger of wanting to turn super model someday...? I don't know.. I'm sure it's the whole future reflection at work. So, that's a small load off.

-I've realized that my hair doesn't just look good all by itself... yes, it took me this long. But, I used to be a tomboy.. so, you know, I didn't give a shit for most of that time.

-I've always very much shied away from the thought of ever having kids.. because I think my brain is way too fucked to be suitable for passing on to others.. and the thought of being a mother scares the shit out of me. But at the same time, I've always had visions of myself as a single mother with a little girl.. for years. And whenever it's come up in divination, it's been the same thing.. and so finally, as I was showering sometime midweek, I finally accepted the fact that someday I'm going to have a little girl. It's wierder than it sounds. But a relief. Now I just have to be sure that every partner from now on is someone that I wouldn't mind splitting genes with.. which, really, is a good philosophy for any gal not on that nasty ol pill.

-I'm not in love with Ian anymore. Which is excellent.

-If you put looseleaf tea into a cup and pour boiling water into it, the tea will eventually sink to the bottom, leaving you with a nice strong cup of tea without messing up a tea strainer or using a tea bag. I wouldn't lie.

Plus, then you can read your tea leaves.

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surreal78:
How do you read tea leaves? I've heard of such a thing but never looked it up. As for kids. It would have to be an act of the supreme lord to give me the chance to conceive. This is alittle of why I act the way I do. I have below normal testosterone, I finally got a testosterone patch, put it on today. I don't feel I'll have any growth spurts to make my physical a supreme reality, but these are my cards. I'm learning to play. confused
Oct 26, 2004
sassylass:
haha,i'm confused ..what am i suppose to do?.. kiss wink miao!!
Oct 27, 2004

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