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Friday Sep 19, 2008

Sep 19, 2008
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A few things have been going on at work this week that have put me into introspective mode. Just some things said, some things done that made me question how people actually view me. Normally I never really gave a shit about how people saw me... just focused on how I saw myself and if I lived up to my own expectations.

So I've decided to do my usual observations of people... I tend to do this a lot but never really focused it in my own direction. It's usually hard to do since I always question my own observations thinking they my be skewed by my own personal feelings. I can do it for other people with no problem because the emotional componet is removed and I can have a clear objective opinion... and I'm usually pretty good at it... I'd say I read people correctly about 75% of the time.

So anyways, I an going to try to turn off the emotional portion of things this weekend and see what I can come up with. Maybe it might explain a lot of things in my life and how people react to me. I see this as a sort of personal growth kind of thing. I mean there are times I think I know myself, and times I think that people know me... but then I remember that not EVERYONE knows EVERYTHING. I had many trust issues growing up with people violating that trust. So I may be the Fort Knox of my friends' secrets, but that is nothing compared to the amount of my own secrets I hold. So this keeps people from seeing certain parts of me.

But I'm straying off topic a bit... I want to know what people think of me from what I show them. I think I have a general idea of it right now but I like to keep re-testing my ideas to make sure I'm close to being correct... I mean it is about me after all and there still might be the possibility of my own emotions clouding my judgement no matter how hard I try to keep it not from happening. So many test samples are needed.

So pretty much this is my plan for the weekend while I'm out and about among people. I might reveal my results... but I might keep then to myself... I haven't decided yet.
brightredscream:
Good luck with your quest ♥
Sep 20, 2008
whitewidow:
I'm feeling better thankswink Now I just need to get rolling in the money....which I don't see happening with my current medical job. Still looking thoughwink

As for my first impression of you - you rock......I was right the moment I first talked to youwink
Sep 20, 2008

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