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i never say things like this but, wow, i had a shitty week at work. found out that we are getting drug tested next month & that 1 of my favorite coworkers is leaving. My other 2 favorite coworkers left last month =( I'm feeling lonely at work & now i have to be drug free?! are you joking? so this is day 2 of not smoking pot & it sucks. totally sucks. I'm not hungry & im grumpy. l'm been smoking for 12 years so this is really weird for me. I love my job, tons, but i'm starting to understand that it really doesn't fit into my life style. I'm going to be looking for new employment over the next month, i figured it's a good time since i'll be clean & able to pass a drug test soon. maybe I'll find something i like better, maybe it will pay more, maybe i'll get to have health insurance. I'm trying to be an adult about this & just go with the flow, but i seriously can't wait to smoke again. I know of many ways to pass ua's but since i don't know when exactly they are testing us & i'm not sure if it's going to be observed,i i thought i better just quit. If i knew they weren't going to watch us pee or what day it was going to be on, it's be a different story. fuck fuck fuck.

i'm shooting another zivity set this weekend, the one i shoot last weekend went great!! as soon as i get a few edited pics back i'll post them.

i hope everyone had a great week, i'm sure next week will be better for me. Have a fun weekend & be safe.

xoxo
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