citrus

so, didn't you know that it'd only be a short matter of time after courtney left and emek joined before i came back to kick around in this joint?

some of what i love about nyc:
it fits me just fine and i can act out or be anonymous and it doesn't make much difference except to certain individuals.
that you have to walk if you want to make it.
i love to ride my bicycle.
i can be at the beach or in the city in less than an hour.
diversity.
shopping as i've never appreciated it in my life.
bridges.
some of the very best friends i've ever known.
being so accustomed to travelling without moving.
crazies.
stark contrast.
life in the fast lane and aching to get away only to miss it while i'm gone.
so much time to read.
stoop sales and trash to find treasure in.

lots and lots more that just is what it is right now.



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i'm in my best girl's apartment.
she's gone to a movie in the city with another girl we love, recently moved from dallas to join a group of us connected here.
i'm going to time out and watch a movie using the vcr because i still live in modest conditions and don't have the proper electronics to enjoy a movie from my room. and i'm okay with that.
i make myself at home and nuzzle the cat i've tempered my allergy to by persistent exposure and buy cider at the bodega on the corner.
i'm sunburned in some spots and healthily colored in others from a day at the beach with four other beauties. i can almost admit i'm one of them, but it's only what people say. i'm neither this nor that at any given moment - i could be anything, i suppose.

i like to be silly. i like to visit friends who are in other cities nearby. i take buses or trains to boston and d.c. i want to visit phili and fly to toronto at some point.
i miss driving sometimes.

it's raining now.
the season reminds me of monsoons in arizona.
yesterday when i got off the train at my stop in brooklyn, it had begun raining hard but the sun was still out. i couldn't keep my smile from interrogating my ears about their standpoint on my head. "move out of our way," insinuated my cheeks and the corners of my mouth.

the gray accentuates the green. the streets smell like bodies and dirt.
the city hums behind the drizzling. eventually you can play ear games with the noise and let it blur into something that might sound like waves in an ocean.

i'm just diggin' over here, though.

i hope that this membership will give me further incentive to buy a farking computer. it's on my list of things to do but hanging onto dollars in this city is a serious commitment.

in a month i'll be in my own apartment.
i'm moving up a flight of stairs in the house i've lived in since i got here.
i'm in love with the family who owns the place, though they're looking to move into something more accomodating for their growing family.
but this tiny flight up will afford me my own sanctuary so far as a place goes ... and it has air conditioners.
i can hardly wait, but i'm practicing patience.

i'll go now.
i have hellos to dish out and a video to push play on.

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