citrus

and a happy thanksgiving day to you all as well.
i'm not 'celebrating' until tomorrow.
i'm in an internet cafe waiting for the wolf to arrive. he should be here in about an hour, if we're still following the plan we agreed on.

i lost my cell phone. i feel like a doofus about it,
but what did i do before i had one,
the same things i will continue to do, y'know?

i write all this stuff in a little memo pad i carry around in my wallet. i think to transcribe some of it, but it's just second-hand by the time it reaches a screen.

i thought i had something to say when i got here.
i've spent the morning cleaning my girlfriend's apartment for the big shebang we're having there tomorrow.
people in from dallas, upstate, girls i haven't met... we're feeding between ten and fifteen people, all of us are contributing something, if not just the amazing company.

mom surprised me and sent me a ticket to dallas for the end of december.
i'll arrive on saturday the 25th and stay until the middle of the following week.

i've taken a hiatus from some things in my life and i've recently had what i'm fondly referring to as an epiphany

this city is so awesome, but i'm so not going to live here forever. i was thinking about lots of other places, but i'm still working on visiting to see what i really think when i get there or there or there.

so much traveling planned for the next couple years. it feels like that's what i'm saving my money for -
not that i've been saving any money. bad penny.

i'm going back to boston in january to see some girls and then in february i've dubbed a great friend my valentine, so i'll get a cheap flight up for a long weekend and spend some snowy days in toronto, watching movies, flipping out, and drinking warming beverages.

it's all very exciting.
i'm so happy that there's the hum of sadness behind all of my elation.
i was nearly in a panic yesterday and had managed to keep it down for a while and then my best friend here called me at work and i just wanted to nestle my head into her shoulder and cry. she and i are so much alike, we both agree... it's a wonder we get along so well


still no hot sex. not that i'm interested, though i still have so many opportunities.
i did the first major let down of this city's courters the other day and the guy called me yesterday again! he said he wouldn't call anymore, but then he did and his excuse was that he's a gentleman.
i don't understand. but whatever.
i read a silly book that the girls have been passing around and it was somewhat enlightening on some degrees, but i just don't want to apply it to my self or my life - i still like giving everyone their right to individuality. and in certain instances, what i 'learned' doesn't apply.

blah blah blah

i have so much to do.
i'm going now. i'd like to look up some recipes and i have to meet j and i have some shopping to do, though i may wait until tomorrow morning. not really sure. it's a weird one - things are closed today because it's a "holiday" and tomorrow my neighborhood shuts down for shabbat.
soooo...
i'm gonna do what i can do while i can do it


do it do it do it.