A day begins, normal to all appearances.
8:20ish, and I force myself out of a warm bed, made all the lovelier simply because it was shared. Then, out into the world. Buses caught, campus reached. I go, as usual, to a lab to sate my internet addiction.
Then, upon leaving, I run into my aunt and uncle. On campus? This can't be good. Things that can't be said over the phone are never good.
Bless my family for having the sense to be blunt; the band-aid metaphor, just tear it away.
My dad had died that night; moreover, he'd killed himself.
I could go into a lot of analysis and history here, and I'm sure the coming weeks will be filled with it. I suppose I'm mostly in shock right now, although within seconds of hearing the news I was sobbing.
It'd odd that it hit me right away.
Because I know the quality of the folks around here, I'll thank you all in advance for your sincere, comforting words. All day I've been thinking about how lucky I am to have such fantastic people as friends and family. That means you, you fucks.
And my girl; she dropped everything to be with me. I don't think, in spite of these recent events, that I could be more lucky. Because of this, and, I'd like to think, because I'm stronger than my father, I'll be OK. Probably even better off in the end.
What I'm getting at is, I love y'all.
And especially you, Sarah. Damn I love you.
Take care, all.
Update: It seems I'm leaving tomorrow around noon for a Sat. memorial, which means I'll be missing breakfasts on either weekend day. Sadly, only tailofdogma will see me until Sunday evening. Have yerselves a blast, crew.
Update, Dec. 3: Have to make this short...being online means being anti-social.
So I'm home now, home being Grand Forks, North Dakota. I loath this place...it's like another, spectacularly creepy & depressing world. The wind does things here I've never experienced elsewhere. Literally within minutes of leaving the Cities, the skies turned grey. Upon entering the Red River Valley, there was rain.
That's about that, aside from being fucking exhausted. Couldn't sleep last night. Who needs a drink?
Funny, that was how I ended the last post I made from GF. Drink enough in this town, eh, James?
8:20ish, and I force myself out of a warm bed, made all the lovelier simply because it was shared. Then, out into the world. Buses caught, campus reached. I go, as usual, to a lab to sate my internet addiction.
Then, upon leaving, I run into my aunt and uncle. On campus? This can't be good. Things that can't be said over the phone are never good.
Bless my family for having the sense to be blunt; the band-aid metaphor, just tear it away.
My dad had died that night; moreover, he'd killed himself.
I could go into a lot of analysis and history here, and I'm sure the coming weeks will be filled with it. I suppose I'm mostly in shock right now, although within seconds of hearing the news I was sobbing.
It'd odd that it hit me right away.
Because I know the quality of the folks around here, I'll thank you all in advance for your sincere, comforting words. All day I've been thinking about how lucky I am to have such fantastic people as friends and family. That means you, you fucks.
And my girl; she dropped everything to be with me. I don't think, in spite of these recent events, that I could be more lucky. Because of this, and, I'd like to think, because I'm stronger than my father, I'll be OK. Probably even better off in the end.
What I'm getting at is, I love y'all.
And especially you, Sarah. Damn I love you.
Take care, all.
Update: It seems I'm leaving tomorrow around noon for a Sat. memorial, which means I'll be missing breakfasts on either weekend day. Sadly, only tailofdogma will see me until Sunday evening. Have yerselves a blast, crew.
Update, Dec. 3: Have to make this short...being online means being anti-social.
So I'm home now, home being Grand Forks, North Dakota. I loath this place...it's like another, spectacularly creepy & depressing world. The wind does things here I've never experienced elsewhere. Literally within minutes of leaving the Cities, the skies turned grey. Upon entering the Red River Valley, there was rain.
That's about that, aside from being fucking exhausted. Couldn't sleep last night. Who needs a drink?
Funny, that was how I ended the last post I made from GF. Drink enough in this town, eh, James?
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steel_talons:
hope your doing alright man. peace.
charlatan:
I am speechless. I don't even have words for you other than the basic I am sorry and my thoughts are with you and if you need anything. I know it probably doesn't help you much but all of those things are true. Just let me know. I am around.