Sorry, for the lack of update/comments. It's not like many of you read my stupid shit anyway...
I've been pretty stressed out lately over simple things like the kittens going crazy (but that is also a good thing
) doing the dishes, my fucking vacuum broke so I haven't done that in a week. Then one of my really good friends.../sigh her fucking fiance that she has been with for over 3.5 yrs just left her high and dry with a 10 month old baby. Was a complete asshole about it. I was friends with both of them but now...I just can't talk to the kid anymore. He has lost all respect from me because he can't pull his head out of his ass and realize that he is killing himself with booze and drugs and just made the worst fucking decision of his life... 
Some people have asked me if maybe I was depressed. I don't even know any more.
Another thing I have been stressing over is that I may very well be moving to the Netherlands. THE NETHERLANDS!!! I am really excited and anxious that everything works out but on the flipside I am so afraid that I will have to leave my babies behind. 2 cats and 5 birds that I have had ALL of them for about 3 years. (minus Katie, she is only 1.5 yrs old) So, I don't know...
On top of all that, this guild in WoW that I have put so much blood/sweat/tears into and am a proud member that finally worked her way up to being an Elder and MT2...Netherlands is 7 hours ahead of Utah. It would just totally fuck my time to play with my guild. I could still play...but not raid with them. And I highly doubt everyone would change the raid schedule just for lil' ol' me.
I stepped in cat puke when I woke up. It was so awesome.
I'm scurred. I don't want to leave my aminals. But I wouldn't mind living in Pothead Heaven: Amsterdam. I mean, come on.
Bah, I'm just talking out of my ass again. I am NOT looking for a pity party here, this is just my journal where I can vent what I am really feeling and right now I feel like a big fucking loser. kthxbi
~Cinder~
-P/S- Nothin' like a little Johnny Cash. Go watch the trailer for I Walk The Line.
I've been pretty stressed out lately over simple things like the kittens going crazy (but that is also a good thing
) doing the dishes, my fucking vacuum broke so I haven't done that in a week. Then one of my really good friends.../sigh her fucking fiance that she has been with for over 3.5 yrs just left her high and dry with a 10 month old baby. Was a complete asshole about it. I was friends with both of them but now...I just can't talk to the kid anymore. He has lost all respect from me because he can't pull his head out of his ass and realize that he is killing himself with booze and drugs and just made the worst fucking decision of his life...
Some people have asked me if maybe I was depressed. I don't even know any more.
Another thing I have been stressing over is that I may very well be moving to the Netherlands. THE NETHERLANDS!!! I am really excited and anxious that everything works out but on the flipside I am so afraid that I will have to leave my babies behind. 2 cats and 5 birds that I have had ALL of them for about 3 years. (minus Katie, she is only 1.5 yrs old) So, I don't know...
On top of all that, this guild in WoW that I have put so much blood/sweat/tears into and am a proud member that finally worked her way up to being an Elder and MT2...Netherlands is 7 hours ahead of Utah. It would just totally fuck my time to play with my guild. I could still play...but not raid with them. And I highly doubt everyone would change the raid schedule just for lil' ol' me.
I stepped in cat puke when I woke up. It was so awesome.
I'm scurred. I don't want to leave my aminals. But I wouldn't mind living in Pothead Heaven: Amsterdam. I mean, come on.
Bah, I'm just talking out of my ass again. I am NOT looking for a pity party here, this is just my journal where I can vent what I am really feeling and right now I feel like a big fucking loser. kthxbi
~Cinder~
-P/S- Nothin' like a little Johnny Cash. Go watch the trailer for I Walk The Line.
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Are you still planning on moving to A*DAM? Let me know if you are. I can hook you up with some real cool people over there.
*These guys are like the Brad & Daphne (I don't know if you know about the old Salt Lake punk eighties/nineties scene-- Raunch Records, etc.) of Western Europe, and run the best/only punk rock record/clothing store in Amsterdam. They have been friends of mine for 20 years. If you go over there, visit the store and tell em I sent you. Here is their website:
http://www.outlet.nl/
Thanks again for the add.
Later.