time for me to get some stuff off of my chest.
i move in a little over a week. its crazy and its starting to hit me that im leaving my only family i have left.my brother and niece mean everything to me..
but someday i hope to run into my parents [that i have no idea where they are] and i hope that at that point for the first time in my life they will be able to tell me that they are proud of me.
last night i was packing and i went to pack my vinyl toys and could not do it. i seriously couldnt imagine not being able to look at them until the 9th. its hard to believe that something like that is so important to me but they are probably one of the most important things i own. when i first started getting clean from the drugs and i felt the need to go buy drugs i would spend that money on a vinyl toy instead. they were the first thing i found interest in after i had lost everything. and i mean EVERYTHING.
i get to live with my bestfriend again. looking back its hard to believe that i chose such stupid things over a girl that would do anything for me. if it wasnt for her i wouldnt be alive today. she was the one that took my pills from me..the one that held me as i was puking up blood from overdosing on cocaine and the one that was always there to tell me everything was alright. that girl means the world to me and nothing would change that ever again. ive lost plenty of friends..most for the better..but she was not someone i could afford to not have in my life
for the first time in a year i can say that my heart is feeling amazing. =]
today someone at work asked me how i was doing..i said fantastic..for the first time in my life i totally meant it
when you find someone that inspires you..grab them by the hand..hold on tight..and DONT let go
im not letting go anytime soon.
i move in a little over a week. its crazy and its starting to hit me that im leaving my only family i have left.my brother and niece mean everything to me..
but someday i hope to run into my parents [that i have no idea where they are] and i hope that at that point for the first time in my life they will be able to tell me that they are proud of me.
last night i was packing and i went to pack my vinyl toys and could not do it. i seriously couldnt imagine not being able to look at them until the 9th. its hard to believe that something like that is so important to me but they are probably one of the most important things i own. when i first started getting clean from the drugs and i felt the need to go buy drugs i would spend that money on a vinyl toy instead. they were the first thing i found interest in after i had lost everything. and i mean EVERYTHING.
i get to live with my bestfriend again. looking back its hard to believe that i chose such stupid things over a girl that would do anything for me. if it wasnt for her i wouldnt be alive today. she was the one that took my pills from me..the one that held me as i was puking up blood from overdosing on cocaine and the one that was always there to tell me everything was alright. that girl means the world to me and nothing would change that ever again. ive lost plenty of friends..most for the better..but she was not someone i could afford to not have in my life
for the first time in a year i can say that my heart is feeling amazing. =]
today someone at work asked me how i was doing..i said fantastic..for the first time in my life i totally meant it
when you find someone that inspires you..grab them by the hand..hold on tight..and DONT let go
im not letting go anytime soon.
That is so amazing Ciao.
Enjoy your time with your best friend.
Your family will still be there.
Take care ok sweetie. Have a safe move.