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5 more days, guys & dolls

I'm so nervous.
I can't eat or sleep.
I can barely believe that the date is so near!

I'm scared shitless
I'm also very excited & proud of myself

It's all I think about.
Besides 3, of course

What if I'm not good enough?
I'm constantly comparing myself to the hopefuls that turn into SG's.
I don't think I'm as pretty as half these girls.
I know I sound achy & whiny, but it's the truth.

I want this badly.
I want to prove to myself that I can make my dreams happen no matter what I think of myself.
No matter what others think about me.

My goal is to go pink with my debut set
It's a long shot, I know.
But it's possible

I really appreciate everyone's encouragement & kindness so far.
You keep me optimistic about my chances of going pink.

Here's me today
Sunday



I need to fix my brows & put makeup on