Well, I havn't been posting much on SG lately. I havn't been spending much time at home lately. It seems that the more time I spend here, the faster I'll fall back into a feeling of sinking. Like I'm stuck.
I've been killing the few hours I have before my shift starts, in the park, reading. I come home after work and read some more. It seems that the longer I'm on the computer, I just idly spend time... and while that's not nessesarily a bad thing to do, it sometiems seems to aid in the sinking. it's like my roots are growing deeper here, and I don't want them to.
REading is a great escape and good company, for an hour or two. Then my eyes start seeing double, and I have to hold the book in a VERY SPECIFIC position to continue, and eventualy my muscles start feeling cramped from sitting for so long, the weight of the book makes my wrists feel tired... then it becomes a chore.
But for now, it's all I have. Can't spend exessive money...have to save up for the eventual move. What friends I have locally are at work when I'm off, and vice versa. All my other friends are at least 5 hours away in all directions (and also are working when I'm off and vice versa).
Stuck in a rut. A rut with an end, sure, but a long wait before that end. Fun fun.
Audible Sigh
I've been killing the few hours I have before my shift starts, in the park, reading. I come home after work and read some more. It seems that the longer I'm on the computer, I just idly spend time... and while that's not nessesarily a bad thing to do, it sometiems seems to aid in the sinking. it's like my roots are growing deeper here, and I don't want them to.
REading is a great escape and good company, for an hour or two. Then my eyes start seeing double, and I have to hold the book in a VERY SPECIFIC position to continue, and eventualy my muscles start feeling cramped from sitting for so long, the weight of the book makes my wrists feel tired... then it becomes a chore.
But for now, it's all I have. Can't spend exessive money...have to save up for the eventual move. What friends I have locally are at work when I'm off, and vice versa. All my other friends are at least 5 hours away in all directions (and also are working when I'm off and vice versa).
Stuck in a rut. A rut with an end, sure, but a long wait before that end. Fun fun.
Audible Sigh
peaks and troughs,....
hi's and low's,....
furrows and ruts,...
hurry up and wait,.....
grand aint it ?
Why of course it is,...
because where there's a "Yang",....
There gotta be a "Yin" sat just around that corner!
You'll see,.....
have a good weekend Mr,......
[Edited on Sep 19, 2003]
[Edited on Sep 19, 2003]
remember what be said....
"Dead men tell no tales"
Arr.
i hear yeh about zee ruts.
bah ruts.
fuck em in zee arse.