Sitting back and relaxing, waiting for my body to finally calm down. Reflecting on the growth that happened this weekend so suddenly.
On Friday, I was texting with my Linda, my girlfrind, about what's going on in our respective lives. I asked her if any of the guys she's working with asked her out. She saw right through the question, and asked me what was going on. I told her Jen was still texting me asking if we could prowl downtown and hit one of the food places there. Jen and I had previously gone to a bar, where she made a fool of herself and spent most of the night puking. I didn't really want a repeat of that.
Linda just told me to take alcohol off the table and see what happens. Why are you encouraging me to see another girl?
Jen and I got pizza that night, and she got around to telling me her situation, that basically boiled down to she got married 5 months and is almost entirely convinced it was a mistake, considering that of those five months, she's spent about 4 weeks with him, and has basically given him $15000 to "grow a business" Which she is pretty certain is code for "Gallivanting around." Divorce is all but certain. I told her about Linda, and about how I was waiting for her to come back.
The she told me that she still owed me a show. Not too long after, I learned that was code for fucking my brains out. It was soooo good.
So good, that it prompted a good cry from her, as she poured out everything she felt was wrong with her life, much of which didn't make sense. most of which were reasons that she kicks so much ass, like owning her own home, and creating great art. When I left her, she very empathically told me that she wanted to see me again, and wished the best for me and Linda.
Then I heard a voice in the back of my head, Melissa, one of my friends explaining Polyamory to me long ago, and I hear, "Now that's real Poly," I kissed her, and promised her I'd see her again soon.
It made me think of Jackie, oddly enough. I'd cut her off before, stopped talking to her altogether when she freaked out so hard about Linda. But in a way, I still cared about her. I needed her advice on a car thing too. I went to see her, and when she opened the door, and saw me, she smiled. I asked her how she was doing, and her answer was to bearhug me.
I really did miss her hugs. We repaired the bridge very quickly. I told her about Linda, and she was embarrassed by her previous reaction. She'd been scared about completely losing me, which caused her to freak out, which caused her to lose me. then she told me that didn't matter, and that she'd take me any way she could get me. After making up, I told her about my car, and she took a look, and basicaly told me two things: The dealer had to fix the problem with my A/C because it used a coolant that was too new, and I was never allowed to buy a car without her input ever again.
After I acquiesced, she pushed me against my car, and kissed me. an invitation upstairs promptly followed.
I spent they day up north on a hiking trail, just thinking about it. Linda knows everything, and congratulated me on starting a harem by accident.
But it isn't even overwhelming. I feel blessed, and and so glad to know these great women.