The first thing I heard this morning when I woke up, was a particular song. A song that my ex and I had very strong ties with... it was pretty much our song.
I was going through some hard times, I'd lost my grandfather.. and she was always there for me... I don't think I've ever loved anyone quite the same, or nearly as much... I've been dwelling on this all morning, and I cannot shake it.
Today I'd already had planned to be the day I started running again, maybe my foot was up to a short jog. So, I took off, to clear my head, and to get some exercise. Not 5 minutes out, my Ipod plays another song...
I believe in Karma and Fate more than anything in the world, but seriously, is it that obvious that she and I weren't meant to be? Fuck me, I'm going to be dwelling on this all day... we separated, obviously so we could both grow stronger..
But at this point, I think I'd be content, driving to her house once more... in the rain, like I always did, running my fingers through her hair as we laid on the hood of my jeep, kissing for what seemed like an eternity...
Nothing gold can stay, I suppose.. but in any case, I'll be sitting here with an ever broken foot, dreaming of what I might have done differently back then...
I was going through some hard times, I'd lost my grandfather.. and she was always there for me... I don't think I've ever loved anyone quite the same, or nearly as much... I've been dwelling on this all morning, and I cannot shake it.
Today I'd already had planned to be the day I started running again, maybe my foot was up to a short jog. So, I took off, to clear my head, and to get some exercise. Not 5 minutes out, my Ipod plays another song...
I believe in Karma and Fate more than anything in the world, but seriously, is it that obvious that she and I weren't meant to be? Fuck me, I'm going to be dwelling on this all day... we separated, obviously so we could both grow stronger..
But at this point, I think I'd be content, driving to her house once more... in the rain, like I always did, running my fingers through her hair as we laid on the hood of my jeep, kissing for what seemed like an eternity...
Nothing gold can stay, I suppose.. but in any case, I'll be sitting here with an ever broken foot, dreaming of what I might have done differently back then...
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fashionista:
Wow....I have those days too, I think we all do. But we have to remember that our past makes us who we are today. I believe in fate too, and sometimes I will hear a song, and then see the person that it reminds me of. Not all of us are in tune with that part of our soul, you are one of the rare ones, like me. 
I especially liked the part about you driving to her house in the rain, running your fingers through her hair and kissing on the hood of your jeep....I have had moments like that myself that I remember. Dwelling on them just makes you sad, you have to think about it, let it remind you of the happy times, and then move on, knowing you will have better (different) times ahead. I hope you're feeling better today...message me soon. xo
I especially liked the part about you driving to her house in the rain, running your fingers through her hair and kissing on the hood of your jeep....I have had moments like that myself that I remember. Dwelling on them just makes you sad, you have to think about it, let it remind you of the happy times, and then move on, knowing you will have better (different) times ahead. I hope you're feeling better today...message me soon. xo
sallydollie:
*hugs* we all have days like that.... if you bake me a cake- ill bake you some cupcakes! cupcakes would make you feel better!