chriswparker

well... last weds, my birthday, was out alone cos my friends let me down, and the ex text me to say her phone was expiring at midnight.

I emailed her asking why she should pick such an opportune moment as to text me late, knowing well it was my birthday and that I was out by myself, and drunk, to send such a stupid cold message.

she said she hadn't intended it to be like that

then admitted that it hasn't expired, she just didn't want contact from me.

what a bitch. so... instead of asking me not to ring or txt, and it's not as if I bombard her with texts, only if there's something to sort out from the split, and I never ring, she lies, drops such cold shit on me on my birthday, while she might just have asked.

I mean, she asked me to move out, and I did. when her married fella dumped her while we were together I stood by her and helped, I have not stalked or been a pest, I moved out my gear from hers with as little hassle as possible, even tidying and cleaning after so when she returned from her holiday, it might have been an empty house, but least it was clean. I haven't rung or txt the kids, and I do miss them so much, and I have been told they still talk about me all the time..

and she does shit like this.

it's fucking cold
and it's fucking nasty.

all I want is the letter she promised me, so I can get closure and move on.
she whipped the rug from under me so quick, my head still spins. i still feel sick with the longing for her and the kids, and the cats. I haven't been allowed to say goodbye to the kids y'know.

shit....

if you really want to know who she is, I'll give you her member name if you wanna give her an earfull, or a blogfull, ha ha! maybe I won't. maybe she's nit worth the hassle.

cheating lying bitch. still love her tho. stupid stupid me.

in other news, I'm ok. been a bit down this weekend, just a bit lost and listless. need some inspiration, and money, I'm running out of thinsg to sell! ha ha!

think a few beers are in order tonight.

How's all you?