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Wednesday May 18, 2011

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Time for a blog on death and suicide.


It awaits all of us. Some of us cause it to others. Some of us fear it. Some of us are waiting for it. Death is a part of life we don't think about day to day. Society has developed methods to hide death in morgues, then funerals, and finally into cemeteries.

According to physicists, we actually possess very little free will. Everything in the universe works in unison with everything else. An interlinked web of existence. Every particle has an equation called "wave function" which is basically how everything is interconnected to that particle and influencing it. If the wave function of every particle was to be known, then the future is very easily predicted. Unfortunately the sheer amount of information would be more than possible for our feeble technology to contain.

Suicide.

Near large buildings I can picture myself jumping off. At the edge of a parking garage I lean over, in curiosity, and then wonder how easily I could take one more step and be enslaved into that eternal freefall.


When I'm frustrated, I think of the cool barrel of a gun touching the top of my mouth. My tongue swirls around the oily metal, and then a blast, and sudden loss of hearing. I can feel my conscience EXPLODE behind me as life dissolves into black. An pitch black nothingness.

A friend of mine's sister in March threw herself in front of a train. She drank coffee at the same spots I do. She went to the same bars. And was involved with the same circle of friends.

Please be respectful. I'm sharing this very personal information with you. She was stunningly beautiful. An artist and a music lover. Not much different than any of us. 22 years done. http://www.facebook.com/mkgreenhalgh
Such a tragic damn shame. RIP Mae



That's how you end pain. You transform yourself. Suicide is a selfish act, it's also a masculine act. A violent act that ends in transformation. The creation of the world without oneself.


In addition my family and my son and friends I want to thank you SG friends for making life just that little bit worth living. And if you're ever going through trouble in life. I'm on your side. Just SEEK ME OUT. I will listen...
VIEW 18 of 18 COMMENTS
lilcali:
He is. Thank you for taking the time out to read and commenting on a blog that meant so much to me. <3
May 22, 2011
nene:
I was wondering if the wave function you speak of is related to the superstring theory I've read about. I only have a rudimentary understanding of it but it does make a little more sense to me after reading this.

I've been at these crossroads before. Once. It was a very long time ago. Luckily, I was able to reason my way out of it and I haven't looked back since then.
I'm sorry for the loss of such a beautiful soul. May she find peace in the next life that she couldn't attain in this one.
Jun 7, 2011

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