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I think I need a reality check... anybody?... please?

Okay, things a really going well with my gf... did I say well? What I meant to say is, fucking fantastic!!!!
So, we have been spending loads of time together, and having tons of fun! This past Saturday night, we went to a Latin music festival, and got up to some seriously sexy dancing, hawt!!! I love to dance and am thrilled to be with someone who enjoys it too, my ex hated it.

Now, here is were I need to get my head straight. Today I had planned to call her when I was done work and see if I could come by tonight and take care of her (she's not feeling so well). Early afternoon, she shows up at my work saying that she is going camping tonight, on a whim. I tried to put on a brave face and not let on how I felt but I was crushed.

I feel so fuckin' pathetic!!

She will be back tomorrow, what the fuck is my problem?!! I need to be able to roll with the punches better than that!

I don't know? I've been going over it ever since, and all I can think is that it is seperation anxiety, related to my divorce. Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself but that doesn't change the fact that I'm feeling pretty mixed up. I'll be fine tomorrow but I have a feeling that this may creep up again, for a little while anyway.



Thanks you guys, I really needed to get that out!