Just before christmas I got a new job and everything seemed mint. I told all my family how good it was going and how much I was enjoying it and that everything was finally sorting itself out for me, I couldnt believe how well everything seemed to be going but then last friday an e-mail was sent to my workplace from head office saying that 'We have decided that the restaraunt and kitchen will be closed after tommorow until further notice and we will not be able to give anyone any hours untill we re-open, we do not know when we will be opening again but it will probably not be before april.'
I had to go home that night and tell my parents that I was out of work again and I wouldnt be able to pay back the loan they have got me to pay off my debts. They understood that it wasnt my fault and were sorry for me but i felt so small and embarrassed about the fact that I was gonna be unemployed again that I couldnt think of anything else to do other than go out and get pissed up, I managed to stay pissed up at work the next day and by the end of the day when we had all finished and we were sat in the bar I made an absolute prick of myself by starting on the executive director infront of customers, other staff, directors and worse of all my auntie and brother and then afterwards I pretty much broke down in front of them all and got asked to leave before the police came then during the course of the night I drank more and more and got kicked out of two bars.
I have now managed to get into an even bigger pile of shit than I was in before because my family are embarrased by me, everyone that saw me probably thinks I am mental and will be laughing at me and all the people that I worked with and got on with and the people that respected me will not have anything to do with me anymore.
Is it something im doing that keeps making things go wrong or am I just unlucky? As far as I know I work as hard as I can and do everything that I should yet nothing ever seems to be going my way and even if things start going better I get chucked deeper into the shitter than I was before.
I cant be assed to do this now and will maybe finish this off another day but for today thats enough (as you can probably tell im still pretty drunk now so I apologise if parts of this dont make sense)
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I had to go home that night and tell my parents that I was out of work again and I wouldnt be able to pay back the loan they have got me to pay off my debts. They understood that it wasnt my fault and were sorry for me but i felt so small and embarrassed about the fact that I was gonna be unemployed again that I couldnt think of anything else to do other than go out and get pissed up, I managed to stay pissed up at work the next day and by the end of the day when we had all finished and we were sat in the bar I made an absolute prick of myself by starting on the executive director infront of customers, other staff, directors and worse of all my auntie and brother and then afterwards I pretty much broke down in front of them all and got asked to leave before the police came then during the course of the night I drank more and more and got kicked out of two bars.
I have now managed to get into an even bigger pile of shit than I was in before because my family are embarrased by me, everyone that saw me probably thinks I am mental and will be laughing at me and all the people that I worked with and got on with and the people that respected me will not have anything to do with me anymore.
Is it something im doing that keeps making things go wrong or am I just unlucky? As far as I know I work as hard as I can and do everything that I should yet nothing ever seems to be going my way and even if things start going better I get chucked deeper into the shitter than I was before.
I cant be assed to do this now and will maybe finish this off another day but for today thats enough (as you can probably tell im still pretty drunk now so I apologise if parts of this dont make sense)
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