I hate everything. I wish that when I went to sleep tonight, it would be the last time.
And I'm FUCKING fat, and my eating disorder just doesn't even happen anymore. In my head, nothing has changed, but my body refuses to let me restrict like I used to be able to. So FUCK my body. I FUCKING HATE YOU BODY I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH I WANT TO FUCKING RIP YOU TO PIECES.
And I'm FUCKING fat, and my eating disorder just doesn't even happen anymore. In my head, nothing has changed, but my body refuses to let me restrict like I used to be able to. So FUCK my body. I FUCKING HATE YOU BODY I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH I WANT TO FUCKING RIP YOU TO PIECES.
Ugh, I'm sorry you've been feeling like this. It kind of sounds like things have not been going all that well in a general sense. When that happens, we can get frustrated at ourselves for sure.
And then we turn it all back on ourselves.
Know that I'm thinking of you, OK ?