chick_spit

Just got home from a Midnight Ridazz 18 mile bicycle ride through downtown L.A. The theme was dead theatre, so I went as the Ghost of Joe Orton, the playwrite. There were about 150 rider maybe 200. Really great ride, I'm pooped and chilling by watching a movie to wind down before going to sleep. Saw an ex g friend, still not over that one. We didn't even go out that long and its almost been a year, go figure. I have slept with other people and still thought about her. I go on these rides in hopes to either get her back or heal. I am hoping to just get over it and move on without hoping for something that probably not happen. We live 2 diff lifestyles and she can't handle the way I live my life, it doesn't match her's. She's w/ a dude now, but I am pretty sure she was with one when we went out. I guess the reason why I'm not over it is b/c it doesn't feel resolved, like there are still feelings I get from her when we see each other, I know I am putting out happy vibes when I see her, like love vibes. Its good to see her, hug her and talk with her. Maybe all this is really part of the process of letting her go, in a healthy way. We just stare inn each others eye's w/o saying a weord, just smiling and making pretty eye's at each other. Does anyone have any suggestions or experience with this sort of situation? Much appreciated.