hi everyone.i know it seems i only write depressing things in my journal but i guess its the only time i ever really write.my husband *TOM* died on thursday.life is so cold and lonly.my heart physically aches.i would give anything to have him here by my side.all of these should have,could have,would have things keep running through my mind and wont stop.i feel horrible.he was a wonderful person. gentle. generous.funny.gorgeous.just indescribably wonderful.he gave every ounce of his being for my happiness.ill never find anyone nearly as great.i dont care to find anyone,not even friends.i wish the world could have seen his beauty the way i did.my love for him will never stop.it only seems to grow stonger by the hour but i hope this pain in my heart relents.i hope someday well see eachother again.i miss him so much.so so so so so so so much.may he finally be at peace.i love you tom.
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nala:
SO VERY SORRY TO HEAR. I CAN ONLY IMAGINE. REALIZE THAT IT HURTS NOW, BUT OVER TIME IT GETS BETTER, HE IS WITH YOU...AND THINK ABOUT ALL THE GOOD TIMES, WE'RE ALL HERE FOR YOU...OVER THE COMP. OR IN PERSON, IF YOU'RE IN PORTLAND, EVEN BETTER, YOU HAVE MANY MANY PEOPLE WHO WILL SUPPORT AND CARE FOR YOU - by the way, I really like what your into (profile)
lionboy:
Oh dear. I'm so sorry. Of course you would write something like that in your journal. I know it hurts but let the pain be; it's there for a perfectly good reason. Sit with it and let it run its course. The loss may not relent for quite a time but keep in mind that the intensity with which you feel it will not be forever. You may find yourself thinking years from now of what might have been, memories of him surfacing when you hear certain sounds, touch certain keepsakes that he loved so well. Remember you were blessed with his presence and think of how much less you would have been without him in your life. He sounds beauteous. Unfortunately, I have no words of comfort that will make the process any easier. Day by day by day... I realize that I don't know you but I wish you peace in your heart and all the love in the world.