so apparently there's a tv show called southern fried somethin or other. ugh. talk about bumming me out.
In other news, i'm alive still...heh. everyday I'm reminded of that, thank god! Just been pretty sick again. Finaly got to have my first post op dr appointment and meet the Oncologist i'll be workign with while back home in arkansas. He's very nice and quite reserved; although, i totally saw him smirked when i told my mom i now have a MEDICAL excuse to eventually just get fake boobs. ( seriously. i will most likely have preventative double mastectomy after this while I can save my own nips, yo. fuck the canser. i'm not doin it again.)
yep.. I call it "it" and "the canser" I refuse to take ownership and I don't even give it enough respect to spell it correctly. FUCK THAT! IT can kiss my ass and say good bye cuz once i get my port placed on monday, that's just whats gonna happen.
in the meantime, things are getting tough financially because my insurance is saying this was somehow pre-existing. (which i am fighting. it was NOT pre existing) The weird thing>??? the insurance is paying some claims and not others, yet it's all for the same damn thing! I don't get it.
What I do get is that I now have over 400,000 dollars (yes, i should have made sure you were sitting before I said that, huh) in medical debt that my insurance company wants to fuck me on and i'm not gonna sit here and let them do it. What happened to this whole Healthcare reform bullshit?? I want my damn vote back.
to top it off, due to a hospital stay from a nasty infection, the dmv now gets a whopping 369 dollars for my reg. renewal instead of the usuall 199. and heeeeeeerrrreees the kicker...I was only ONE DAY LATE!!!!
Can you believe that shit??? One day!!! FOR SOMETHING THAT WAS OUT OF MY CONTROL!!! alas, i have to eat the loss because swiping the canser card (thats what I call it when i say something like "but see, I was sick with canser and needed a break" to help catch a break...cuz, sometimes we all need one.)didnt work on the dmv. I'm learning that not everyone cares that my world stopped because I was retarded enough to let the canser do that crap.
Gotta get back on top o my ballgame and regain control, cuz I ain't striking out.
love ya'll.
jess
ps. i think i've figured out a name for my blog...just gotta put it together. i think i'll save that for later tho. hehehe
It's not how you survive the storm, its how you dance in the rain.
In other news, i'm alive still...heh. everyday I'm reminded of that, thank god! Just been pretty sick again. Finaly got to have my first post op dr appointment and meet the Oncologist i'll be workign with while back home in arkansas. He's very nice and quite reserved; although, i totally saw him smirked when i told my mom i now have a MEDICAL excuse to eventually just get fake boobs. ( seriously. i will most likely have preventative double mastectomy after this while I can save my own nips, yo. fuck the canser. i'm not doin it again.)
yep.. I call it "it" and "the canser" I refuse to take ownership and I don't even give it enough respect to spell it correctly. FUCK THAT! IT can kiss my ass and say good bye cuz once i get my port placed on monday, that's just whats gonna happen.
in the meantime, things are getting tough financially because my insurance is saying this was somehow pre-existing. (which i am fighting. it was NOT pre existing) The weird thing>??? the insurance is paying some claims and not others, yet it's all for the same damn thing! I don't get it.
What I do get is that I now have over 400,000 dollars (yes, i should have made sure you were sitting before I said that, huh) in medical debt that my insurance company wants to fuck me on and i'm not gonna sit here and let them do it. What happened to this whole Healthcare reform bullshit?? I want my damn vote back.
to top it off, due to a hospital stay from a nasty infection, the dmv now gets a whopping 369 dollars for my reg. renewal instead of the usuall 199. and heeeeeeerrrreees the kicker...I was only ONE DAY LATE!!!!
Can you believe that shit??? One day!!! FOR SOMETHING THAT WAS OUT OF MY CONTROL!!! alas, i have to eat the loss because swiping the canser card (thats what I call it when i say something like "but see, I was sick with canser and needed a break" to help catch a break...cuz, sometimes we all need one.)didnt work on the dmv. I'm learning that not everyone cares that my world stopped because I was retarded enough to let the canser do that crap.
Gotta get back on top o my ballgame and regain control, cuz I ain't striking out.
love ya'll.
jess
ps. i think i've figured out a name for my blog...just gotta put it together. i think i'll save that for later tho. hehehe
It's not how you survive the storm, its how you dance in the rain.
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Hope you feel better all the time Cheyenne.
Take care.
Well Im glad you found a good doctor, I hope he can help you thru this.
Cancer is the suck, it is a little bitch and Im sure will die out in the coming years never to be seen on earth again!
This is fucked up, they have to pay that shit, I dont see how people can sleep at night when they are fucking with peoples life like that, all they care about is money!
All the world seems to care about is money, we just need a different system so people will stop being so money hungry, something needs to be done.