cheyenne

So tonight I asked my cousin to be my maid of honor in my wedding. she is trippin on the fact that I am getting remarried and to someone who is not white. what the fuck. I say if i am happy then why can't she be happy for me? I guess i am just pissed off at her holy-er than thou art attitude. She has no job, mooches off her boyfriend's family even though his mom is mean to her and her boyfriend is a complete loser who got her back into drugs...so much to a point that because of him, she was robbed at gunpoint...yet I am the one making a mistake. For once in my life, i am truly happy and it is not because of the little blue pills that i have to take every day. Why can't my family just be supportive of that? i am at a loss for words on this. She kept telling me how it was just "weird" that he is Filipino. ok....why is that weird? maybe she is just jealous....i don't know...i guess because she is miserable, everyone else is supposed to be miserable too. She always insults me too. Talks about how my dog is ugly, then tells her boyfriend she wants a dog that is the breed of mine, makes fun of my clothes...so what if i like to shop at thrift stores and Macy's. Why the fuck does that make me a "Poser?" because i don't wear clothes from Walmart or Hot Topic??(ok...i have stuff from Hot Topic, but still...) I don't deny my southern roots or my surfer attitude, the fact that I like Michael Jackson's music and I absolutely don't deny who I truly am. I guess some folks just can't handle that about me. So I say Fuck it. I'll find someone else to be my maid of honor. any takers??