chewtoy81

DEPRESSED !!!!!
HURT !!!!!
HEART STINGS !!!!!

so last night im on the the phone with my gf and she is drunk and she says "i fucked up". my immediate male thought was "u fucked another guy". it wasnt that but its kind of worse I THINK. she gets walked home everynight from work by this guy who waits outside and escorts her home. she is attracted to him but he is to young for her, he is physically appealing and is nice. she even took him to a party the other night and didnt invite me cuz it was spur of teh moment and apparently didnt wnat me there WHATEVER !!!! she says nothing has happenned. but she know that he wanst to fuck her and he apparently talks trash bout me a guy he has never met and has only seen once. he said " tahts the kind of guy i just wanna punch in the face for five minutes". she says shes in love iwth me and that i dont need to worry but im insecure physically and emoitionally and when a woman who has stressed TRUST, and HONOR and she says taht this dude is texting her and has made it obviously clear taht he wants her. what am i suppose to think. im not pissed im just concerned im going to lose her cuz she is first woman whom i have loved and am in love with.

every woman i have been with used me for some reason whether it was to fill a void while their man was away or to fill teh void until tehy met teh right guy. im always second never first in the race of love. im just not good enough. i hate being the nice guy , cuz all girls WANT the bad boy and just use the nice guy.