Lost within a sea of emotion. I don't know how to feel. Part of me feels betrayed by promises that were not kept. I promised that I would wait and I kept my word. Now she is with someone else, it does not make any sense. When I read her words such as, "No one could ever, or will ever, be as good as him" or "Wait for me, my love. A few months apart will be made up for with a lifetime of love", I can't bear to think that those words mean nothing now. Do I hold out hope that she is confused and still does love me, one day when things are right she will return. Unfortunately for me my body knows not how to deal with pain. I have no appetite, my nights are restless and I'm easily angered.
I ask this of those reading this, that if you know who it is that I speak of, please don't comment or harass her. I know some of you may want to defend me but it really won't help matters. (This was more for the myspace entry)
I ask this of those reading this, that if you know who it is that I speak of, please don't comment or harass her. I know some of you may want to defend me but it really won't help matters. (This was more for the myspace entry)
grieve, and move on.
your doggie is sooooooo cute!
xx
I DO know who you are speaking of, and I am truely sorry to read that you two are no longer together.
I developed an internet crush on her long before you were in the picture, and admit I (amoung many I am sure) had a hint of unreasonable jealousy/envy of you
But I also found your journals to be insightful and interesting, and since I spoke to her occasionally via IM, I was happy for you both. I just came across your journal today, and am truely shocked!
I don't pretend to know ANYTHING about your relationship with her... I haven't IM'd her in 6 months....and would never ask about her personal life even if I did... but I hope you find what it is you need my friend....either closure and peace with the situation or better yet, her return.
Good Luck