as of late I have bEen ,,....leading a vampire existence....
......................I go to sleep at 5AM............is this wrong????? I cannot break out of the habit............sometimes I feEl as if everything is going by me as I do this.....................Yet it is ......at best a great creativE tiMe.............................................
...................................My landlord refuses to pay for my broken winDoW..........shE is usinG my DeposiT money>>>>>>>GOd I hate this woman and dO so much to holD back my angER ....because I have to.....noot much unlike how I feeel toward my X.......and maybe becauSe.....I hatE the feelings that I still hold for her........even through all of the shit and immaturity she has thrown at mE......most dayS r good but every now and then This wavE of hatrEd comEs...............that saying that timE heals may be truE ...but how long........and how can I want to be friends with someone who dictates terms on how we can be friends............can you love and hate someonE simultaneously???????..................honesty sayS to me thaT I canNoT and that her pushing me to be friendly to her new guy is just some vindictive streak in her toward ...Me.........
......................I go to sleep at 5AM............is this wrong????? I cannot break out of the habit............sometimes I feEl as if everything is going by me as I do this.....................Yet it is ......at best a great creativE tiMe.............................................
...................................My landlord refuses to pay for my broken winDoW..........shE is usinG my DeposiT money>>>>>>>GOd I hate this woman and dO so much to holD back my angER ....because I have to.....noot much unlike how I feeel toward my X.......and maybe becauSe.....I hatE the feelings that I still hold for her........even through all of the shit and immaturity she has thrown at mE......most dayS r good but every now and then This wavE of hatrEd comEs...............that saying that timE heals may be truE ...but how long........and how can I want to be friends with someone who dictates terms on how we can be friends............can you love and hate someonE simultaneously???????..................honesty sayS to me thaT I canNoT and that her pushing me to be friendly to her new guy is just some vindictive streak in her toward ...Me.........
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And yes, I have thought abt doing a set like that ... actually, my previous set (most recent one up) was supposed to be exactly like that .. with artwork and shit all around .. but the photographer was a lazy piece of crapola and didnt set anything up the way I asked him to. Id love to do something like that again .. but Id have to have some artwork to do it with. This is one of the reasons I want to get back into painting.
and I have no idea why my email isnt working, it should be .. Ive been getting all my emails from the site. try it agn