My X ...ok I am sick of this subject to.....buT the spitting incidnt really brought about some changeS..........I still wonder why I was not firD.....I think I am trying to get her to do that...Any wAy.........I have beEN sending abnoxious emails to her lately .....to fuck with hr and get to her........I had a goOd talk xplained my unhappinesS of us not working ouT............and decided that WE must be fiends in order for the biz relationship to survive....I think because of trhis I can begin to not give a shit..........I think I am suppose to make friendsa with the new guy o at least she wants thats ...BUt it will neve happen........ maybe the next onE....any way I am going to start doing YOGA with her in the mornings........its so pathetic that I wnt this friendship.......maybe I just want to fuck her again ( pardon the bluntness).......but no I think I can do it .....but going over to her house in verboten 4 the timE being.........................................
SooOOOoooo yeaH ..........I figure its better than obsessing and spiting on cars ( which I will still do ).............maybe it will have agood effect and eventually I will not care............relationships r so challenging at timeS ....she says even if I had done the things I did not ...we still would have broKen uP.........she belittled what we had a bit which makes me think fucK yoU............ I know shE loveD me at one point and I think somewhere we both always will ....but she could not say it.........soooOo bLAH...BLah..... Im sure shE is noT ove thinKING it ......I cant wait until her new relationship getS fucKED up by herseLF...........as vengeful as it sounds I mean iT