I've just got back from a very wet camping trip in the Peak District. Despite the particularly crappy weather I had fun. I drove Rob nuts behaving like a simpleton at times, but he's used to it and I do make up for it by not being too bothered by anything. I will moan a bit admitedly but I don't bend his ear half as much as the other two girls do their boyfriends! They never seem to be able to do anything right! Went to Alton Towers and had lots of fun queuing and occasionly going on a ride, and also visited an old mining tunnel that had ben flooded so we got to ride a boat along it I am rather lazy, but it was a long tunnel! They had the smallest stalactites I've ever seen but apparantly these ones only grew 1cm every 4,000 years or something like that.
I got to enjoy a very yummy bakewell tart, from Bakewell no less. But I was crept up on my feelings of unhappiness which haven't left me. I can distract myself from them but they're still there. The cause? Being home, I can't get used to it. Everytime I look out the window I get this funny sensation that leaves me feeling disconnected to being here. I thought I was ready to come home and maybe I am, but the lack of job thing has left me feeling useless and unoccupied. Something I haven't felt for a very long time! I've got so used to doing so much that standing still doesn't feel right, not least because it gives me the chance to over-analyse pretty much everything.
Part of me is missing being in a relationship and yet I wouldn't change being single for anything really. In this past year I've got used to being by myself and I don't think I could let anyone in. And yet, I do miss that closeness. Oh dear, forever a contradiction!
Still I haven't been completely down in the dumps! I had a lil cinema sess Thurday and went and saw Transformers (finally!) and then Bourne. I watched Strayed and Roman Holiday before I left and then got back and rewatched The Beat That My Heart Skipped. My dad has once again got loads of movies I want to watch but several he hasn't watched either so I'm going to try and be patient and wait to watch them together. It's not like I can afford to go out at the moment!
Oh well, I shall just have to continue job hunting!
I got to enjoy a very yummy bakewell tart, from Bakewell no less. But I was crept up on my feelings of unhappiness which haven't left me. I can distract myself from them but they're still there. The cause? Being home, I can't get used to it. Everytime I look out the window I get this funny sensation that leaves me feeling disconnected to being here. I thought I was ready to come home and maybe I am, but the lack of job thing has left me feeling useless and unoccupied. Something I haven't felt for a very long time! I've got so used to doing so much that standing still doesn't feel right, not least because it gives me the chance to over-analyse pretty much everything.
Part of me is missing being in a relationship and yet I wouldn't change being single for anything really. In this past year I've got used to being by myself and I don't think I could let anyone in. And yet, I do miss that closeness. Oh dear, forever a contradiction!
Still I haven't been completely down in the dumps! I had a lil cinema sess Thurday and went and saw Transformers (finally!) and then Bourne. I watched Strayed and Roman Holiday before I left and then got back and rewatched The Beat That My Heart Skipped. My dad has once again got loads of movies I want to watch but several he hasn't watched either so I'm going to try and be patient and wait to watch them together. It's not like I can afford to go out at the moment!
Oh well, I shall just have to continue job hunting!
So what did you reckon to the cinema? Transformers and Bourne right? RIGHT!