cherub

So today sucked. I've gotten myself into a situation with someone i shouldn't have gotten myself into a situation with and it's blown up in my face. See, we do these things and think we wont get hurt when we realise that they're not giving us their full atention, when technically they shoudln't have to anyway, because their loyalties don't lie with you, they lie with the person they love. And the person they love isn't me. And now it's all gotten suspicious and she's freaking out and he's scared and doesn't know what he wants and i don't wanna upset her, but i want him and i hate it because i should have just had more self-control and i feel like a c*nt.
And work was shit and stupidly busy and my boss does jack all day while us lowly skivvies work our asses off to get paid peanuts.
And then i got home and dropped my fucking laptop on my big toe and it hurts so much i keep nearly passing out.
Do you ever have those days where all you wanna do is go to bed so that when you wake up it isn't today anymore?