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wanted to say a collective thankyou to everyone who's commented / messaged such sweet and much appreciated condolences.


I have a job interview Wednesday, a funeral most likely Friday, and at some point over the next few weeks I guess I'll hear whether or not my set gets accepted. There are so many things going on right now my head is like scrambled egg...but more scrambled. can you imagine such a thing? (i dont even like scrambled egg)

I was sitting at the train station today, and for 3 mintues I stared across at the opposite platform, where I could see my dad, clear as day. As apparent as all the other passengers milling around were. I know he wasn't there. But my eyes and heart told me he was. When a friend asked what I had planned for the week, I said "I'll be going up to London to visit my dad in the hospice". They shot me a quizzical and concerned look and said in a hushed tone 'I thought he passed away on Friday?'...... "oh yes" I replied....

I don't know where my head is right now.

Maybe it's on the same plain as my dad's soul, desperately trying to catch up to him and drag him back home?
Fuck. maybe I should take up drinking paint thinner.


xxx