So, here i am laying in my room looking around, ive just taken all of his things out and put them in a box, pictures,cards,love letters,teddys...whatever had him on it, it went in there.
My room has him everywhere, we painted the walls together, went a little crazy, hes written his name around my room in all these weird little places, i just keep finding them, ones that id never seen before.
Fuck these walls look pathetic,
All the gaps were pictures of me and him!
I think its better this way.
Ive asked pug that he come and help me paint my room , im thinking red with a black and white checker feature!
So , i feel good. Like, i really am looking on the good side of all of this.
Everyone thought i would go back to him, but we werent meant to be. I wasnt completely happy with him, nor was he happy with me and we just dragged it on and on and really it was over a long time ago. We had problems, we broke up a few times,
I have just been thinking about how many fights we had, and how many times id cry...and yet i thought i was so in love with him. It was love. But it wasnt the type id want to spend the rest of my life together! I want explosive love. The kind of love that makes you sick! And we didnt have that.
Im upset that he cheated on me, but hey its a learning experience...and honestly, if he wants to fuck sluts...then he should! But he should have the guts to tell me, or break up with me!!Im excited about whats next for me.....who knows what im doing or who im doing or where ill be!
Hahaha so bring on the next chapter in life....
My room has him everywhere, we painted the walls together, went a little crazy, hes written his name around my room in all these weird little places, i just keep finding them, ones that id never seen before.
Fuck these walls look pathetic,
All the gaps were pictures of me and him!
I think its better this way.
Ive asked pug that he come and help me paint my room , im thinking red with a black and white checker feature!
So , i feel good. Like, i really am looking on the good side of all of this.
Everyone thought i would go back to him, but we werent meant to be. I wasnt completely happy with him, nor was he happy with me and we just dragged it on and on and really it was over a long time ago. We had problems, we broke up a few times,
I have just been thinking about how many fights we had, and how many times id cry...and yet i thought i was so in love with him. It was love. But it wasnt the type id want to spend the rest of my life together! I want explosive love. The kind of love that makes you sick! And we didnt have that.
Im upset that he cheated on me, but hey its a learning experience...and honestly, if he wants to fuck sluts...then he should! But he should have the guts to tell me, or break up with me!!Im excited about whats next for me.....who knows what im doing or who im doing or where ill be!
Hahaha so bring on the next chapter in life....
knives2meatyou:
I think it's better this way too, and I'm happy for you that you've taken these steps. Anyone who's been in your position (and that has to be most of us) can appreciate how hard it is to let go of the past, but you really do seem to understand what you want out of life and what you want out of love and if he wasn't going to give it to you, your best (and really only) choice was to move on. I imagine there will be times when you feel weak and want to return to him, or maybe scared or lonely, but when that happens just remember how you feel right now - it's good to be free, it's good to have that excitement of not knowing what's going to happen next and who's going to come into your life. I hope whatever happens, it happens sooner rather than later and it makes you deliriously happy.