cherryvanilla

Did you know that everything is going to be okay? I am convinced. I am such a sarcastic and cynical person that I feel like such a New Age dumbass trying to feel positive. I remember when I moved to northern California and was trying to get ready for my first day of class at HSU. First of all, I have an anxiety disorder and I get nervous and panicky and all that fun fucking stuff. So, I got really desperately cheesy and put fucking little affirming post-it notes all over my room. I could only take a couple of hours of it and I had to rip them off. I mean, what if someone dropped by and I'm all Stuart Smalley style?? But right now, I have few options and I don't want to even think about the evil, bad ones. So, I can get through this, I can make it, I can stay happy and laugh at what this life has fucking served me right up. You want fries with that shake??