It's how I see the world when I close my eyes.
Soon... hopefully you'll see to.
That was how I ended my last (short lived) entry. Now, it's 2am and I have just two photos for you as a sample of what I was working on.
if only you could see further ahead
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communication, pointless
These photos were taken using a technique called redscale. In simple terms you re-wind the unexposed film onto another spool back-to-front. This way you are shooting the film from the wrong side. Normally the blue layer of colour film is exposed first (as it is the closest to the surface of the emulsion). Loading the film into the camera back-to-front in this way means that the film is being exposed from the back. This causes two things to happen - the red layer of the film is exposed first, but more importantly the back of the film acts like a kind of orange filter and absorbs much of the light. This stops the majority of blue coloured light (as in the sky, and the general colour of daylight) from ever reaching the film.
In short, you get extremely red and orange photos. Occasionally you get lucky (like me) and there is some blue in there and it is a beautiful result. As, I hope you can see.
So, I said this is how I see the world when I close my eyes. It's the truth. Getting these photos back from the lab I am gobsmacked as to how much it's true. This is the only way I've been able to show the rich levels and tones the world takes on for me. And when I close my eyes (to remember or absorb; both) this is often the hue and atmosphere the world is enveloped in.
On flickr, I tagged the photos with "i read too much science fiction". I think this is one of the reasons I interpret the world this way. But, just one of many. I believe I see colour differently to a lot of people and so I see tones and hues differently too. The world is so incredibly rich to me and I am often highly distracted out in the real world. Sometimes it's impossible to keep my attention for more than a few moments before something else has distracted my eyes and stimulated my mind. This is especially so when I'm in a new environment.
Aside from this, I am constantly living out a fantasy in my mind of a dystopian future (or future history to be precise). These photos really illustrate those fantasies for me.
In short, these photos really make me feel positive about the things I can capture. This is a major improvement on my mental position in the past couple of months. I feel alive and excited again and simply: I believe in my own abilities again. There will be a lot more where these photos came from. Check back soon and thanks for reading.
With that I'm going to bed with a Science Fiction novel...
Goodnight.
I miss you and your sweet voice.
love, Sheila