All my life I have believed that it is important to realize ones flaws and attempt to correct them. No one is perfect, and of course it's important to be yourself, but there is nothing wrong with trying to be the best possible version of yourself (contrary to popular belief).
When I was young I was painfully shy. I hated being out in public and I never knew what to say. i over analyzed everything I said and i was scared of everything. I read a short story called "(Learning About) Machine Sex" and the main character struck me as exactly what I wanted to be. Callous, angry, and afraid of nothing. So I decided to be as much like her as possible. I considered her response to everything I heard until I broke my shyness. Now being crass just comes naturally. I have done this at least 100 times in my life.
Lately, I find that I am very stressed, angry and bitchy. I realize that i am overwhelmed and that this is a natural response, but it has brought to my attention that I do not possess grace, especially, as the clich has it, under pressure. So in an attempt to repair that I have chosen another character to emulate. Holly Golightly of Breakfast at Tiffany's fame. Can you think of anyone more graceful? I need to re-read the story to really get an eye for the character again, but I think she is an excellent choice. I know it seems like a silly way to go at self improvment, but literary characters make more sense to me than self help books and shrinks. I can't go to another shrink, they always give you that condescending look of pity and fake interest when you're talking, and it's the same fake look on every one. it's gross. So this is my therapy. I'm happy with it.
When I was young I was painfully shy. I hated being out in public and I never knew what to say. i over analyzed everything I said and i was scared of everything. I read a short story called "(Learning About) Machine Sex" and the main character struck me as exactly what I wanted to be. Callous, angry, and afraid of nothing. So I decided to be as much like her as possible. I considered her response to everything I heard until I broke my shyness. Now being crass just comes naturally. I have done this at least 100 times in my life.
Lately, I find that I am very stressed, angry and bitchy. I realize that i am overwhelmed and that this is a natural response, but it has brought to my attention that I do not possess grace, especially, as the clich has it, under pressure. So in an attempt to repair that I have chosen another character to emulate. Holly Golightly of Breakfast at Tiffany's fame. Can you think of anyone more graceful? I need to re-read the story to really get an eye for the character again, but I think she is an excellent choice. I know it seems like a silly way to go at self improvment, but literary characters make more sense to me than self help books and shrinks. I can't go to another shrink, they always give you that condescending look of pity and fake interest when you're talking, and it's the same fake look on every one. it's gross. So this is my therapy. I'm happy with it.
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tex13:
The important thing is finding something that works for you. Good luck with your self improvement.
rudiecantfail:
I've always been skeptical of psychatrists for the same reasons I think; they can sit there and listen to you talk about your problems, but what can they really do to help you change the things that are fucked up in your life? Not that talking about your problems can't make you feel a little better, but a good friend can sit and listen to you get your problems off your chest just as well as a shrink.