chenz

I have over the past week or so begun a blossoming relationship with a beautiful, kind, sexy girl. The whole thing was so easy, she is totally laid back and we get on so well. She aid we had both had such a bad time with relationships the past year or so, that we should avoid putting a label on what we have in case we spoiled it, so we have just been going with the flow.

I know it's only a week or so! But I have wanted her for years. We both know each other so very well, and the whole thing fits perfectly. We have been taking things slowly, haven't slept together yet, which is a notable achievement for me, and it feels right.

So tonight I broke it off with her. Yeah, I'm terrorfied of commitment now, and I don't want to be tied down. I think I would have been much more inclined to take a risk and a leap of faith if I didn't care about her so much. Which is totally contradictory, because I have probably lost her now anyway. What a fucking mess. I specifically stated I wasn't getting into a relationship, and things have developed anyway. I didn't want to hurt her, but the do say the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Warm up a chair for me Satan, 'cos I'm on my way!!!!!